I know it’s the first day of the new year, but it just doesn’t seem real to me yet. It’s as though my mind is not convinced of what my brain knows to be true. I have that underwater kind of feeling. Every aspect of the holidays seemed to have gone by so rapidly that my inner spirit feels lost in the daze of it all.
I am not sad or depressed, but I am also not happy or excited by seemingly anything. I do not recognize this feeling. My sleep is quite sound at first, almost like I am under anesthesia then I suddenly wake up. I stay awake for a while then I drift off into a vivid dream-like state. Dreams that I can remember when I awaken yet again.
I am completely satisfied to sit in utter silence. My ability to socialize is at a strange kind of pause. I don’t seem to be able to stop thinking, analyzing everything that others are saying to me. A completely odd, dazed, under water kind of feeling. I almost feel like I’m waiting for spirit to return to my body. Anybody out there know what this is, or having the same experience?